sa wakas.
sa wakas. it's been exactly 20 days since i last got hold of this thing. hahaha.
we've only started to go to school last january 3, yet it doesn't feel that way. i guess we have all the projects to thank for that. hehe. seryoso, mukha na tayong mga projects. wala na kong ibang nadinig kung hindi projects, projects at projects. saka tilaok ng manok. kasi ibig sabihin nun umaga na pero di pa ko natutulog. hahahaha. ang labo.
anyway, wachu think? aren't those kinds of meetings supposed to clarify stuff in a way? i thought they're supposed to give someone a clearer perspective, a more understandable thought about things? well, last friday's session did otherwise to me. don't you think violence is such a strong word? hello. violence means blood. and killing. and murder. the heck. she doesn't even know him. that's the whole point. she was not supposed to give me a blunt no if she was sensitive enough to intuit that i was expecting a more considerate yes. i never knew him as someone like that. he was never anything like that. would i love him this much if he were?
oh life. the only predictable thing about you is your unpredictability.
we went to loan's yesterday. thoughts of the past came surging in. add to that the date. it was january 24th.
school's been really a drag. i don't know how you guys survive 'cause i die every night. for some reason, i am revived every morning. hahahaha. ang labo.
every night, as i take a shower to get ready for bed, i'd wish for the water to take with it down the drain the pain my body had been complaining about, and the anxiety my mind had been trying to conquer. that way, all my troubles would be lost, streaming through those pipes under the ground.
then, i'd be turning out the lights and hit the sack. i'd soon be lost and absorbed in a temporary numbness that would last for only a few hours. the most is 6, the least would probably be 2. all the nuisance will then start to bother someone else, for i will surely no longer respond to its attempts to make my day miserable. i'd soon be oblivious to the world, journeying to a place where all fantasies start to unveil and reality is nothing but a mere, putrid memory.
then in the morning, my body would sense that imperative instance of awakening. i would then open my eyes and see complete darkness, a mere sheet of nothingness. and probably after one complete spin of the longer hand around the clock, sunlight would start to fill the room. though it entails great persistence, and the yawns are just too impossible to be withheld, it feels good to witness daybreak.
it's another day for school. time to sit back and enjoy the chaotic, yet progressive ride.
hehe.
ninais kang makasama noong
5:11 PM at
ang tumutol.
it's a wednesday.
last monday was the first day of school for the year 2005. i guess it was okay. we never really did much anyway. we just rechecked the finals and got to know our scores. i felt really sleepy throughout the whole day. i felt like a complete wreck. i haven't been able to sleep properly for the past few days. i'd usually hit the sack by 9, but i'd drift off to sleep at around 11 past. i know. it sucks.
tuesday. early dismissal.
stats. i'm a bit confused with the fpc thingy. or cpf? pcf? whatever. i forgot. lol. i don't know how to really do it, but i arrive at the correct answer anyway. oh well.
then pe. i really hate it when we're asked to bring our uniforms when we won't really use them. it's not that it's such a big trouble to bring it but there are some people i know who always gets on the verge of forgetting that wednesdays are pe days, and just hurrily packs it only a couple of minutes before her bus arrives. it's sad. lol.
we talked about drugs. i yawned every 2 minutes of that whole freaking hour.
i hated algebra. i hated that quiz. i think my brain popped out while i was trying to solve number 5 or something. then after we have passed our papers, i was shivering. haha. i felt like my mouth was jumping up and down. i was really trembling like crazy. my fingernails were also rather dark. i felt really cold. kalals said i probably just stressed myself out with the quiz.
we had the HARDEST experiment paper in bio. lol.
english was fun. i enjoyed watching that japanese documentary thing. i liked it when they said that samurais believed their sword has a soul; and that when his soul and the sword's would merge, unity is attained between the samurai and his weapon. therefore, it is not the samurai that kills, but rather it is the sword that does so. the samurai becomes merely a thing that holds it.
well, i liked it but in a different sense. it actually killed me. kim and i thought it was stupid. sorry :P hehe. it's just that it's like they were trying to look for an excuse or something just so they won't be accused of committing sin.
and what exactly is up with their honor? i know it means a lot to them but why on earth would you die for it? it's like they can't accept defeat.
okay, i'll stop babbling. a samurai might jump in my window tonight and sabotage me or something for saying all those stuff.
then there was filipino. we just read florante and answered some questions. sir flubert [naks! close kami!] sub-ed. didn't i just see ms delfin this morning? or maybe i really didn't.
anyway, i'm reading this book. it's called, "a catcher in the rye". it's great but uses a bit of a foul language. it's interesting though, because the guy in the story is really eloquent and hysterically talkative. he thinks a lot. and he thinks funny too. haha.
anyway. i;m almost done with our cl powerpoint. i only have to do 2 slides which i think i can finish tomorrow since i'm waiting for sir delos santos to fill me in with his lecture anyway. i just hope he doesn't ask for a diskette of this tomorrow 'cause i can't give it to him for two main reasons. first, our a drive is busted so i can only burn it in a cd. second, well of course, it's not yet done. lol. sorry groupmates. i'll finish it though by tomorrow. i promise :D
it's pretty fun to sit in the back. it's like you have the whole world right there before your eyes. you can see practically everyone, practically everything. except for the board. it's as if we have our own world back there. we can talk and all that with everyone else barely noticing us. i won't suggest it though, that you sit in the back. i'd still really rather sit in front. 'cause that's the thing. you have your own world there so you're somewhat alienated. you're so far away from civilization. so if you're sitting somewhere near the board, or anywhere in the first few rows, good for you.
well, i think things has been going smoothly in school. all the pressures and chaos are actually very much typical already nowadays. it's really nothing to be surprised about or anything.
tomorrow's a thursday. art? ugh.
lol.
ninais kang makasama noong
3:14 AM at
ang tumutol.
happy new year :D
it's christmas eve.
well, the 29th of december had passed without anything happening. oh c'mon. get a grip. i wasn't really expecting something to happen. it's just that i've been quite off lately. i have no idea why this thing's bothering me.
time will tell? =))
happy new year to everyone.
ninais kang makasama noong
6:29 AM at
ang tumutol.
wala lang!
naiinis na ako sa'yo. pero salamat at pinangiti mo ako. pero mali parin eh. may ginawa kasi akong kakaiba kagabi sa'yo. akchuli, hindi ako natuwa. hindi maganda. nakakainis. isang katangahan. tsktsk. ayoko na sa'yo. pero malabo. pero wala akong care! basta ayoko na sa'yo. ayoko na. :-l
lol. ang drama. ano yun? telenobela? hahaha.
so, kamusta mga christmas nyo? ako merry. hahaha.
wala akong magawa.
happy new year nalang. tinatamad akong mag-kwento. sa susunod nalang mga ka-tropa. hahaha. babay :D
kitakits sa enero.
ninais kang makasama noong
6:31 PM at
ang tumutol.
it was great to see you.
the scenes in my dream are already rather vague in my memory as i speak. we were crossing the street, headed to a building i don't think i am quite familiar with. i was to meet up with my friends but for some reason, i never did. we went up and i saw polcab. she was with pam. then i showed you our classroom. a meeting was being held. micmac was there. and so were some teachers i have failed to remember.
then we were in another room all of a sudden. you sat on a green sofa, and i sat beside you. we started to talk and laugh. i was having fun like i never did before. you asked about the stuff that happened to me when you weren't there to witness it, and so did i. we spoke casually, as if nothing in the past had happened. you weren't just a silhouette, you weren't just a mere shadow this time. i was looking into your eyes, actually sitting before you, witnessing you project a happy facade. your voice lingered in my ears. it was nice hearing it again. then i hugged you. you were wearing a white shirt. and a faint scent was perceived by my senses. baby oil.
and as i opened my eyes, sunlight filled the room. the air was crisp and cold. it actually made me want to get back in your arms again. it was at that moment that you made me yearn for the old times once again. and with a tinge of longing and craving, i managed to give out a soft whisper. i miss you.
it was great to see you, dad. merry christmas too. :D
it's christmas eve.
merry christmas to everyone.
ninais kang makasama noong
1:37 PM at
ang tumutol.
bad irc! bad!!
una sa lahat, kaya ganyan title ko kasi wala na kong maisip. hahaha. saka kasi nagd-dl ang aking kuya sa irc. tapos umalis siya. kaya maingay. nakakairita. alam niyo yung tunog. parang.. *blog..blog..* kaya sabi ko, okay, i will blog! hahahaha. malabo. pasensya. kakagising ko lang. kahit 10:30 na. late na kasi ako natutulog these past few nights. masaya manood ng tv. at tumawa mag-isa. at magpaka-auti. hey, i don't get to do this during school nights. hehe.
tapos may napanood ako sa hbo kahapon. may mga miracle dogs. haha. wala lang.
tapos napanood ko rin yung parang concert ni justin timberlake sa star world. haha. ang galing niya. i am amazed. nagk-keyboards siya, tas gitara din. tas malamang magaling siya kumanta at sumayaw. talented siya ha. promil kid.
nakakairita talaga yung tunog. gusto kong patayin kaso pag pinatay ko, ako yung mamamatay dahil papatayin ako ng aking kuya. teka. pasko. wag tayong magpatayan.
haha. ay alam niyo ba?? kahapon ay hindi ako nag-computer. buong araw! what an accomplishment! hahaha. nanood lang ako ng tv buong umaga. tapos kumain. at nag-gitara. tapos kumain ulit. tapos nood ulit ng tv! hahaha. nakakabato actually, pero ok lang. hahaha.
tumutunog parin siya. at naiirita parin talaga ako.
may party mamaya sa bahay ng aking pinsan. maraming tao dun. ayokong pumunta. pero teka. on second thought. maraming tao. maraming pamasko! hahahaha!! speaking of... nalabuan ako. kasi pagkalabas ko ng kwarto, binigyan ako ng 500 ng aming katulong. sabi niya bigay daw ng aking stepdad. katuwa. sana ganto lagi araw-araw tuwing umaga. haha.
tapos sabi ni pyel na pupunta daw silang town mamaya. e ayaw niyang sumama. so dapat pupunta nalang siya dito. jamming daw kami. haha. kasi may bago na siyang gitara. lol. kaso nireject daw ang kanyang proposal. haha. magsh-shopping daw sila. hahaha. wala lang.
ay. kamusta nga pala ip nyo? hahaha. wala ata kaming balak gawin this break. bwahahahaha. sorry sir! hahaha :P
tapos kagabi, nanood ako ng csi. yung isa, hindi ko naumpisahan kaya di ko masyadong naintindihan. tas yung pangalawa, ayun naintindihan ko na. ang galing!! =D> katuwa sobra. tinxt ko pa nga si lari. sabi ko i'm a certified csi fanatic na. lol. nasa tagaytay siya. nangangatog na daw sa lamig. hahaha. ako naman nakahiga, nanonood nga ng csi. nilalamig din yung paa ko. tapos kumain ako ng ice cream. hahahaha.
may narealize ako sa panonood ng csi. pag papatay ka ng tao, dapat matalino ka. kasi kung hindi, kawawa ka naman. saka dapat magsapatos ka. kung may dugo, hugasan mo. kasi makikita nila ang iyong footprints pag nagpaa ka. footprints are as good as fingerprints daw. kaya mag-ingat kayo! hahaha. saka natutunan ko rin na kapag ang isang tao ay nagre-recall, tumitingin siya sa right. pag nagsisinungaling or nagm-make up lang ng story, sa left. o diba. galing noh. haha. tapos ano pa ba. ay. may sinabi din dun kaso di ko masyadong nadinig kasi may dumaan na tricycle so di ko naintindihan. basta sabi,
'repeat after me. silk silk silk'.
'silk silk silk?'
'what do cows drink?'
'brrroooooom'.
ayun. dumaan na kasi yugn tricycle kaya di ko na nadinig. lol.
maingay parin yung irc. sige na. aalis na ko. nakakairita na. lol. ay ay. saka bakit nga pala nila tinanggal si spongebob sa 11am at sa 4pm? sa 7:30 ko nalang siya napapanood. yung pumalit ata yung 100 deeds blah blah. oh well. haha. may movie naman ng spongebob eh. nood tayo mga kapatid! hahahaha.
magliligpit ako ng kwarto. what's a good charity?
december 23 na. 1 tulog nalang at bubuksan ko na mga regalo ko!!! weeee! pagdasal niyong magka-ipod ako! hahaha. malapit na talaga ang pasko. kaya maligayang pasko sa inyong lahat. :D
[edited:8:38/12:23:04]
nanood ako ng spongebob. haha. wala lang.
tapos nag-town ako kasama ni pyel. pero saglit lang. hahaha. masaya.
tappos nagligpit ako ng kwarto. although hindi pa siya ganon ka-ayos, may mga nakuha na akong stuff. ano nga ba ang magandang charity? saka saan? hahaha.
wala lang. merry christmas :D
ninais kang makasama noong
10:34 PM at
ang tumutol.
maligayang pasko :)
4 na tulog nalang at pasko na.
maliwanag ang aming tahanan, napapaligiran ng iba't-ibang mga ilaw. sinisinagan ng mga ito ang bawat sulok ng kadiliman. malamig ang simoy ng hanging patuloy na umiihip, muling nagbabalik ng maraming alaala.
lol. ang drama. ano ba. paskong pasko. tama na.
gusto kong mag-simbang gabi. samahan niyo ko. sige na. tara. kahit once lang. lol. tapos kain tayo ng bibingka or puto bungbong. or whatever. tapos pag malamig na, pahiram ko sa'yo jacket ko. hahahahaha.
ang ingay ng upuang aking inuupan. it's making funny noises. hindi ko gusto. that's why i have to sit still so it won't make those freaking creaky, squeaky sounds. fun. i am a prisoner of a simple mediocre chair. hahahaha.
nag-iinuman yung mga 'workers' sa kabila. hahaha. ang saya nila. last night na kasi nila, at uuwi na sila bukas. or mamaya ata. ewan.
inaayos parin yung permit thing kasi hindi daw pinayagan yung proposal nung harapan ng bahay. ewan ko ba. i never thought building a house can be so complicated. umupa nalang kayo. hahaha.
di pumasok mom ko kanina kaya pumunta kaming price smart [tama ba? lol. syempre di ko alam. haha.] kasama girlfriend ng kuya ko. bumili kami ng gift for him. basta parang lamp for his new room. tapos sa stepdad ko naman, dvd/vcd/mp3 player. basta. hahahaha. tapos mas masaya pa, nanalo ng raffle yung mom ko. tv. hahaha. o diba. merry nga talaga ang christmas. lol.
sabi ng gf ng kuya ko na sabi daw ng aking kapatid ay gusto niya ng medyas. at boxer shorts. hahaha.
gusto ko ng ipod. bili niyo ko. hahahaha. wala na kasi akong pera. poor me. lol.
wala akong ma-blog. so pasensya. ang tagal na kasi nung huli kong post.
ay. nanood pala ako ng spongebob kanina. kahit replay, pinanood ko parin. katawa eh. tapos yung kahapon, yung kinuha nila yung fur ni sandy. hahaha. tapos si gary, gusto lang pala yung cookie na nasa bulsa ng shorts ni patrick. hahaha. wala lang.
gusto nga pala ng kuya ko ng spongebob na nagsasalita. o kaya daw patrick. ako rin gusto ko. hahaha. marami akong gusto. pasko naman eh. wala namang masama kung mangarap ako diba. saka magparinig. hahaha. joke lang :D
tapos may isha-share ako. alam niyo bang friedster really connects people? hahaha. marami akong 'kamag-anak' na muling nakausap dahil dun. katulad nalang ng isa kong 'pinsan' na nasa london. hahaha. naging friend ko siya kagabi lang. ininvite niya ko eh. i think it's been almost 3 years since i last talked to her. or 4? hahaha. wala lang. hahaha.
i'm bored. wala akong magawa. pasensya sa walang kwentang blog na 'to. hahaha.
basta maligayang pasko sa inyong lahat. talon din kayo sa new year para magsitangkadan tayong lahat. weee :D hahaha.
'though it's been said many times, many ways, merry christmas to you.' :D
ninais kang makasama noong
4:17 AM at
ang tumutol.
